Apologies for taking my leave last week but losing the chance to go to a World Cup when it was within touching distance was such a tough pill to swallow and I really didn’t have the words. However, it is right that we review what went right and what didn’t, while looking ahead to what nevertheless is an important time for Bermuda cricket.

First and foremost, we need to finalise the situation with our head coach [Niraj Odedra]. It’s an important thing to be taken care of, as we have another tournament [50 overs World Cup Challenge League] not far away. I haven’t spoken yet to the coach about his position or anyone at the board, for that matter. I think there are still a lot of emotions after the tournament just gone, and you obviously have to try to strike the right balance and make sure that people get sufficient downtime after putting in so much hard work.

I know that Niraj is still very enthusiastic about this project, and helping us to progress as a nation. So I think we’ll just have to wait and see how the next couple of weeks to a month goes. I’m pretty sure a decision will be made within the next month.

It was extremely disappointing missing out on the T20 World Cup, but there were still a lot of positives to take out of the tournament. There were a lot of things that I thought we did really well, but we have to accept there were some things we didn’t do so well. Nevertheless, we always knew that it was going to come down to winning the last game. It was just unfortunate that we couldn’t do enough to quite get over the line.

I agree there was greater expectation placed on us after the way we performed in the first game but in our second game against them, we were playing on a wicket that wasn’t quite prepared after the weather we had had. We had no time on it for two days before the match, so it felt like whoever won the toss and batted in bed was very much in the driver’s seat. Even then, I think we restricted them to what was a pretty lowish.

There were a few soft dismissals and we probably could have been a lot smarter with attacking certain boundaries and hitting with and into the wind, but that’s one of those things that you learn from the more cricket you play. I wouldn’t say that Canada are that much above us or that far away from us. To put ourselves in that position, or to be in that position, that shows how close we actually are to them. T20 cricket can quite often be taken away from you by one guy on the day.

One school of thought is that we lost momentum at the end of the Canada innings by putting pace back on the ball after having restricted them to what might have been an under-par total. But I was always going to back Bongy [Kamau Leverock] with that last over. He came up against probably the two best hitters in their team. It might have been different had we gone to a slower bowler, but I always felt that it didn’t matter who bowled that last over — they’re coming at you and there’s the real possibility the over will go for 15 or more. On this day it went for 20 but on another day, they could have mis-hit one or two and we get two wickets for six runs.

It’s always one of those things to say in hindsight, “do this, do that” but I backed him ... I backed everyone. It was unfortunate that he went for a few more than he would have liked, but I don’t think that took away any momentum.

Similarly, not getting in my full quota of four overs was a decision made after taking all wind conditions into consideration. With so much crosswind at the ground at North Field, we had to be smart about who bowled at what end. For the most part, we got it right with the off spinner bowling with them hitting into the breeze. I don’t regret not bowling out; it was just another six balls and might have been a lower total but the boys did very well, and bowled well throughout the tournament.

There were some areas where the pundits could say we weren’t up to it. We probably could have run a few more singles. We could have probably taken a few more risks to the spin, playing sweep shots, using our feet and exploring more boundary options. We probably could have ran a couple more twos. But for the most part, I know definitely when we fielded that it was tough in certain areas of the field to charge the ball because it was so much wind. In a sense, you have to make that judgment or sometimes you just have to be brave and say, “You know what? I’m just going to attack it, no matter what.”

This all amounts to hindsight being 20/20. In the first game against Canada, we scored a lot of boundaries — we hit 15 fours and 11 sixes, and in a sense didn’t have to run so hard. Obviously, at North Field, it is a bigger field and you have to run your runs. That’s an area of cricket where everyone would look to keep improving.

After a few months off, we will be looking to go again. The next tournament is just as important as the one we just finished. I think it sets us up nicely. Obviously, we have another opportunity at the T20 World Cup in two years. It’s still important for us to treat this with the same energy and seriousness; match practice is better than anything and so we’re looking forward to that and hopefully we can get some positive results.

Personally, I am still without a professional contract but I’ve had a few conversations. It is not something that has been easy to do because we’ve been so busy with the tournament. But now that things are winding down, it’s definitely something that I’ve spoken more about with a few people. Nothing yet is in the works but as we know in the sporting world, things can happen quickly. I just have to be patient and see how it goes.

• Delray Rawlins was speaking to Dexter Smith